KEEP HOLDING ON IN THE PAST WHILE LIFE IS PASSING YOU BY
No this is not me on the video it just happened to like it
You can not predict your future but you can have dreams and through
those dreams you can see yourself somewhere in the near future. We
all do this weall have goals and dreams and we hope they may come
true one day. But you are the one who is going to make your dream
reality. Do not just sit on your dream but go out and make it happened.
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND WE TAKE IT FOR GRANTED
BE WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BEDO NOT EXPECT EVERYBODY TO RESPECT YOU
COVID-19 brought lot's of problems and death, the lockdowns were long and lonely isolation is a state of mind and some can not deal with it but I could.
Working in a cargo ship you are isolated from the rest of the world, in the army you are lonely but those experiences made me tough and I delt with the lockdowns pretty well. In fact the virus gave me another chance to live. Ironic while people loose their lives I discover mine.
I enrol myself to the university with fear in my mind and excitement I went through it they accept me and there I was study criminology and psychology. I felt and act like a teenager I went through all the modules and three years after i got my BA Honours in Science.
Then I went for the masters degree in criminal law and violent crimes. It was tough very hard modules I had to study as much as 10 hours a day but IO was determent this is what I wanted to do all my life.
yes, I can say I made it and I am not proud but pleased with myself that I made it. I wish my sister was alive to see what I have accomplish but I am sure somehow she does.
For the master I spent a great deal of time alone I did not realise but some days I was not talking to anyone not by choice but seems to me the hours were shorter and time was flying.
The days I was by myself I was day dreaming going places and meeting the people I wanted to meet and tell them about my life as it is now. I was worried they will not believe me but I was telling them anyway.
My life has change completely is it for the best? I do not know yet but for now I think I am happy I love what I am doing and I will go till the end .
SECOND CHANCE IS GIVEN FOR A PURPOSE LIVE IT AS..
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TEENAGE YEARS
LOOKING FOR MYSELF
Some May Say.....
It was a long-term plan, one plan that my only mistake was the age. From early thirties I made up my mind what I want to do with my life. I have had a lot of bad luck, or I was not in the right place at the right time. I wanted to use this experience reflect on the problems and the solution. Plan, to become a criminologist, and curiosity kills the cat, not only because curiosity took the best of me and been adventurous, I wanted to know why we humans think they way we do think. So, criminology and psychology were my target.
Start reading books about criminology I wanted to be informed before I enrol to a university. As I was reading halfway, I stopped and just a thought in my head, how can you be a criminologist if you do not know crime? How can you write about prison and prisoners when you have no idea how it is like to be a prisoner. How can you understand crime when you never had the experience.
Theory is one thing but practice another. I do not condemn all the criminologist, but I question them because they may be able to write the word prisoner, but they have no idea how it feels like to be one. Life in prison is real it is cruel it is level zero. How can you feel your work your research if you have no idea what are you writing about?
Yes, I want to be a criminologist, but I want to feel what I am talking about, I want to experience and then write it down or talk about it. Nightlife was my start; I found a job as a door man in a gat club. I discover the nightlife and drugs, attitude behind the gay nightlife. For years I was studying the lifestyle, the chem sex I went through it I had a taste of it. I became a criminal, I did not steal from anybody I did not kill but I did drugs, and I help deal the drugs. Never to underage in fact never you anybody who was less than 30 years old.
I got involved with Arizona and the Mexican production of crystal meth; I had a gun in my head because they did not believe my doings. It was scary but real. I thought to myself that now I can talk about drugs and about the gay lifestyle the psychology behind it. I knew what I was talking about. Thren, I remember saying to a friend that in two years I will do my best to go to prison even for a year to live a prisoner’s life. So when I am free I will know the full meaning of the word freedom. And so, I did go to prison and after that I was ready to become a criminologist.